There is a feeling that comes with wanting to reinvent yourself. 

At the same time, you feel scared and worried about being judged by others who know your present and past self. Honestly, for now, I can say, it never fully disappears, but it does become a passing thought you can brush aside, reminding yourself that judgment only matters if you believe it

When you feel the urge to become a new version of yourself, the only thing to do is act on it. That is what I am choosing to do. And who knows, maybe in a few years I will want to do it again. That is the beauty of life.

This version of myself that I am becoming is not someone who avoids vulnerability. Instead, it is someone who carries past hurt with understanding and uses it to grow. I am learning who I am through everything I have experienced.

There is so much I want to restart and rediscover. I went through a reset at 18, and now I am 28. Back then, I moved out of state, made new friends, changed my hair, got piercings in so many places, and fell in love many times. 

Now, I am here again, trying to figure out where I want to live, what I want to do, how I want to dress, and who I want to be.

I am grateful for everything I have learned and experienced, and for all the people I have met, loved, and even been hurt by, and sadly, who  I hurt. While I feel this need for a reset, I do not want to lose the life experiences and memories that shaped me.

From almost getting married to falling in love again, life has been unexpected. When I was 18, I did not know that I would feel this way again at 28. But here I am, trying to figure out how to love myself after truly experiencing life.         

2026 was unexpectedly full of many twists. 

It was full of firsts: the first time I got a surprise party, the first time I did not cry on my birthday, the first time I lost a job,  the first time picking out a funeral outfit for someone, the first time putting myself first in a relationship, and my first time just making an unexpected road trip. Not to mention, all of that happened within a month. 

First time I am looking at all the things that got me here. 

Because after the dust settled, most of my life’s pillars fell one after the other.

So the only logical thing to do,  when everything went to an uncomfortable level of unknown, was to create something.

 To find and share the best way that I was able to overcome and am overcoming.

This blog is where I share what I am learning and what I have learned in real time.

After everything that happened, I realized I am not the only one who feels lost in their late 20s.

 So I want to document my reset, the good days and the hard ones, and share the lessons I’m learning through each experience. 

I’m not saying I have everything figured out; I am figuring it out as I go and understand maybe that even chances as I grow.